Today is a beautiful day. Not just because it's the weekend, but because it is my best friend's 18th birthday! Yep you read it correctly, 18! Oh and to fill you folks in on the secret of who my best friend is, it's my sister. Wow, how time flies. You're an adult now...although, you've kind of always been one. As far back as I can remember, even when we were little, I always looked up to you in a way. You always had a way at looking at the world with compassion and wisdom, and still do. I don't know how many times we watch a crime show and you end up feeling compassion for the crazy serial killer! I know, she's crazy right? No. In fact, we all should take a lesson from her. Showing compassion and unconditional love to people is very hard, especially when they have done nothing to deserve it...but then again, what do we do to deserve unconditional love? I will be the first one to admit that I screw up....a lot. I know, you all are shocked but it's true. There are times where I just wish I could go back and take back everything. There have been times where I didn't think I had friend within a thousand miles. Then I would realize all I had to do was look to the person next to me and find my sister. She was and always has been there for me, even when I mess up. If anything, she helps me fix it. Sometimes I think "Okay I'm the oldest, shouldn't I be the one to give advice?", but she just knows exactly what to say to put everything in perspective for me. She knows how to make me laugh until a drink, any drink, just flies out my nose when just five minutes ago I had tears just pouring down my face. She knows how to set me straight when I feel I have lost my way. She finds me when I am completely lost. This past semester was challenging and there were so many days where all I did was wish my sister, my best friend, was sitting right next to me making me laugh and forget my troubles just for a little bit. That's the downside of college is that I am way too far away from her.
I don't write this to make people cry or be depressed all day. I write this because I want my family, my friends and the whole world to know how much my sister means to me. How much her existence is what keeps me going every day. How badly I just wish I could be her some days and how much I need her in my life. She is my everything. Some may be reading this thinking our relationship may be unhealthy, that I may be too close to my sister, but I strongly disagree. We have been best friends since the day she was born and I wanted to wear my fancy shoes for her arrival 18 years ago. I don't remember many things from age 5 and under, but the one thing I do remember is, when I was 3, holding my sister after she was born. I remember how beautiful it was holding her and how special she was to me and I had just met her. There was something there that I knew she and I were meant to be best friends. She was my sister and I loved her unconditionally from the first time we met.
So, today on your birthday, it kills me that I am not there for you physically, but I am always with you. I wish you a day full of love, happiness and everything you wish to come true. If anyone deserves to receive her hearts desires, it's you. You are so important to me and I am so incredibly proud of the woman you have become. We've gone through a lot together, and there is so much more for us to go through. It has always been you and me against the world and we're still conquering! Happy Birthday thither! I love you soooooo much and I miss you more than words can possibly express! Because everyone knows, "We go together like a wink and a smile." As for the rest of our adventures together, don't worry I'll keep you posted!
